The Musings Of The Consensus

It's on this day for honoring fathers I have to confess I feel mixed emotions. The truth is, I don't truly know my father, and after what he did to my mother, I don't want to know him and neither does she. And I won't mince words as to why. I was born of my mother being raped. However, in that my mother chose not to curse me for the sins of my father and decided I should be allowed to be brought into this world anyway. I couldn't be more grateful, as I eventually met the man who I now call Father with pride, and while we may not share blood, I don't need a drop between us to consider him my true Father. Granted, it wasn't an easy road to that end. My mother had been married twice before. Her first husband I share nothing by a name with, one of the few things I got from that worthless whoremonger deadbeat that I'm proud of. Her second husband was not much of an improvement and after being twice burned, she was quite reluctant to get married again, d

I've recently been playing Persona 4 Golden, and I always wondered what it would be like to face my Shadow, the side of myself I'm ashamed of I would like to pretend doesn't exist. Since I'm more than well aware of my flaws, hope Persona fans enjoy this. Also, for those who have ever felt I don't live up to my Christian ideals, I'm going to address those concerns, so for you Christians in the audience (and those who think I'm doing a bad LARP as one), this also is something of a Bible recap of things where I admit what I haven't always lived up to, and I hope this fictionalized account of my own flaws serves to help you all face your own failings and avoid making my mistakes. Here goes: As Daniel slowly felt himself regain consciousness, he realized the floor felt cold and unfamiliar as his eyes slowly adjusted to the almost supernaturally bright light. As the feeling reentered his body and he stood up, he realized he was no longer in his own ho

One of the last things I kept tabs on before leaving the Kiwi Farms in disgust over how I got shit on by certain parties there for things I dare any of them to say as formal accusations in a court of law was how the US Department of Justice is seriously considering tweaking, weakening, or, at worst, abolishing the Section 230 of the Communications Decency Act of 1996. Now, despite how cruelly I was lied about and abused there, what was done to me does not approach libel as far as I'm concerned, at least nothing I'd bother a courtroom over. I have the truth on my side, none of my accusers will ever dare back up with they say without the shield of an internet username, and given how the political winds are blowing, I predict the Farms will be shuttering its doors in a few months anyway, so let them take my public activity out of context and spread all sorts of garbage with maybe a tiny grain of truth and over 99.99% insulting invective. I'm a big boy, I can handle that. R

Since I decided to leave there for good, I want to tie up a few loose ends here and now that my last post did not address. 1. Just because I left in disgust over how shabbily I was regarded by gutter trash who made it clear they would continue to harass me with no provocation, that does not mean I'm suddenly going to switch sides and join the legions of angry morons trying to take the place down, nor am I going to be a bitter ex-member who curses it as evil incarnate since I was spurned (or rather self-expelled) from paradise. Hopefully, this just means I can close the book on this part of my life. I know nothing about the place, so I'm not in possession on any dirt about anyone there, I'm not going to start a crusade against them, mostly because I've been trying to get away from drama, cutting myself off from there can only help in that regard, and while there are some people there I have had the intense displeasure of crossing paths with, I just want to ignore the

I've made a post or two here before about having left there for awhile, but this time I have crossed the Rubicon and requested a permaban. I've already deleted my passwords and whether the permaban is granted or not, I don't care, I'm leaving and not returning this time. Thing is, I don't hate the guy who runs the place, or at least he's not the focus of my anger. My anger is directed at the people there who harassed, hazed, defamed, doxed, and otherwise made my life there a living hell. Yes, I'm well aware "if you can't take the heat, get out of the kitchen", so I'm taking that advice and getting out. I thought I could handle it for the longest time. I really did, and looking back, it wasn't so bad for awhile. However, as the site changed, as people came and went, and as cliques formed and prejudices hardened, certain people became the "cool kids", and the rest were bleeding meat for the dogs to savage. That was me as the

One of my loves is reading history, and I've been binging on history books for quite a while now. While doing so, I've been rereading a few books on the American Revolution, and to be honest, both sides did some really dumb things, and since some of them are kinda hilarious, I thought I'd share some of the more galaxy brained things both sides did. 1. The only reason the war started was, quite simply, the British (King George especially) were too arrogant to not kill the golden goose. Up until the end of the Seven Years War, since the turn of the century (meaning from 1700-1763), the British had ruled their American colonies with a pretty light hand, to the point it had become "normal". Afterward, they started clamping down and demanding strict enforcement of tax laws they had otherwise been content to let off easy for several generations as well as dreaming up new ones that could only make their American subjects angrier. Then, they had the temerity to wonder w

These days, it seems some people, namely those who riot, loot, and commit crimes in places where the police are punished for daring to remind them such acts are illegal, think bad is good and good is bad. They claim they are justified in doing so because they are angry at being mistreated, but I don't see how rioting, looting and making a mockery of the law fix any of their problems. To date, they have yet to explain how abolishing the rule of law is going to fix society beyond some asinine logic that the police is a cure worse than the disease, so if we get rid of them, then we'll be better off. When you ask how they can guarantee this, their answer boils down to (assuming they bother to be civil about it) "trust me on this". As we've seen, in areas where they basically got their way like that laughable hippie commune in Seattle Washington they call the Capital Hill Autonomous Zone (or CHAZ), this is clearly not working, given the first person to establish an

I'd like to cover some more of favorite character designs from Girls Frontline 1. TEC-9 TEC-9 is based off the infamous semi-automatic associated with crime in the 1990's United States (and can be used in Grand Theft Auto San Andreas), I like how her character design is basically a female version of The Punisher, who is the epitome of edgy 1990's in design himself. 2. P226 The SIG Sauer P226 was a pistol favored by the US Navy Seals as opposed to more standard Beretta M9 used by most of the US forces, at least until it was retired in 2015. Her character model features both a reinforced life vest/sailor skirt and she carries a seal plushie in reference to this. Aside from the fact the model of SIG she carries is not the same as the SEAL variant, I otherwise dig the naval references in her design. 3. Jericho The Jericho is an Israeli derivative of the CZ-75 pistol, only it has a different barrel and heavier frame. It's still in use by the IWI and

Thankfully, riots are nowhere near my immediate family, though some of my friends and extended family are not so fortunate and I pray God shields them every day. And, even if that is not an immediate problem in my own vicinity, I must admit I still have other worries. I live with my mother and help take care of a disabled father. While we've been fortunate to have no disruption in his home health care and we are all doing well at the moment, watching people elsewhere turn into riotous animals who believe it's alright to kill, steal, and destroy fills me with anger. However, unless they personally try to attack those I care for, in which case I will defend them via whatever means are at my disposal, their handling I believe is the best fit for the courts and the currently embattled police and auxiliary military forces deployed to assist them, whom I pray are able to suppress this civil unrest. I also am dismayed that the people who are rioting are doing so while we are still